I’m so scared of that pain .

HAPPY HALLOWEEN WORLD !

I know it’s not a big day for anyone here in Malaysia , but yeah hopefully soon it’ll be , have a little faith in our very own country ! Okay , that wasn’t really sincere , haha . I wanted to have a celebration especially with the five of them , you know who you are , but guess everyone’s busy :/ *sigh .

Didn’t make it for Xhee Kee’s suprise party that Ting Mun invited me to go  because i’ve some family stuff to do , I’m so sorry , but I got you something *winks Pratically , I didn’t enjoy much today , I felt lonely somehow , had a talk with mum about next year’s schedule , it’s counted convinced that she allowed me to arrange it myself with tight schedules . I really like to have it , I dislike having free time to think what can I fill it with , seriously it gave a hard time and massive headaches . I would always ended up with doing nothing , wasting my time to emo all about it . I know right , my life’s so boring. Now I’m making a step to make things better .

Without you , is like losing someone I could talk to , about every ups & downs despite you’re still the one knew me the best . I’m forcing myself to think of you lesser everyday, so that the pain would go away slowly . Life still goes on , I told myself that I’ve much more things to do than having a boyfriend.  I would not stucked with all the wonders , whys and imagine things will not ever happen again , because that just make my life more , miserable , I wouldn’t want any of my friends or you , to worry about me . I’m not weak , but I ain’t that strong like the tough girl act I put up . I breakdown alone , I burst into tears myself , I tuck myself into bed with tears almost everynight . Like you ,once said , what done’s done right , you just have to get over it . Sometimes , I smiled by myself , staring at a corner and recall the amazing memories that we had , that’s just funny & creepy haha , still , thank you for the memories you left me , if I could relive it , I would (:

Once in awhile , I would look for someone to talk to about it , like Edward my bestest budd , he would just listen to me all day , great advices he gave too , thank you so much from all the way bottom of my heart for always being there for me . I always felt better after blah-ing everthing to him , that just make us better , closer buddies (;

Oh yeah , I went out of my title . Whoops . I had bunch of friends visit me to wish me HAPPY HALLOWEEN I guess , unfortunately I was bathing halfway -.- Sorry guys ! Thank you , it really meant alot to me though (:

I’ve been rotting at home since finals ended , I am pretty excited about tomorrow . Watching 3D horror film with Adele & others ! It’s my first time watching 3D , just pray that I won’t chicken out , hahaha! Till then , will update whenever I’ve something to update , lol .

Toodles .

First of all , Happy 10 . 10 . 10 ! You’re not going to be alive for the next one , so people be grateful ! This is just a normal day , with a special date . But for me , yours truly , is a very special day , I’m not sure I’ll reveal why or I’ll just keep it down . Hey ! Do give me applause as a warm welcome to be back for blogging ! Haha lame  , I know . Ohhhh I miss this talking-to-myself  feeling , yet its not

What made me come back if you’re wondering . I’m not quite sure , okay can we skip that part?! It’s cracking my head off to think why did I come back , I mean whodafuk cares ? MY TITLE ROCKS IT ALL LAH RIGHT ! I forgotten the previous blog’s password , so I decided to start a new blog here , wordpress.com (:

” It’s happening too fast . It’s happening too sudden . I don’t know what to say , I’m totally blank , I’m speechless. Things were never meant to be like this , well I thought .  That’s just faith I guess . ” 2:06am , laine` .

Obviously , you’re so blur right now . Don’t bother to know , not even to ask , k . thx . bye (: That’s all for now , my eyes’re shutting now . Goodnight , world & you .

Signing out , laine`